Dear Lady by the Sea,
You are a mess, you're crazy, and sometimes you just don't make sense, but I love you to death. You have this big heart, this love for people, for art, music, and stories. You see the whole world as if it were a book and we are all characters. You see books as if they are the world and the characters are real. Like I said, you're crazy, but there is a certain poetry in crazy. If you were not crazy, we could never be friends because we couldn't go to concerts and shake our hair or laugh about at things like characters in shows who never get fired as much as they skip work.
You have this way of learning things. You don't like to learn from other people, you like to teach yourself. I wonder if you were born in the times of the great scientists like Einstein and those people who like to drop things and give it's fall a name, what kind of trouble you and them would have gotten into. I wonder if you would have given gravity it's name first. You would have probably thought harder about it's name. It would have been symbolic in some way. It would have had to mean something.
I see the beauty in your heart when I look at your paintings. I can't explain it. The best I can do is compare it to a group of two year old's playing with bubbles. They are so wild and gorgeous. They squeal and laugh. They're so awestruck that it makes you awestruck. Wild and gorgeous describes all of your art from poetry to paints. If you could fill a canvas with laughter and squeals it would look like the painting hanging in my bedroom that you said you had so much fun with.
I know we challenge you. I know I push you further than you want to go sometimes. But I also know that you actually want to go further, you just won't admit it to yourself. You, Lady sit by the Sea and you marvel at it because it's gorgeous, because God is the best artist. You wonder as you sit there what it might feel like to go running into the ocean. You wonder if it's cold or warm. You think about the glorious things that might be beneath the surface, but you are held back by a terrible fear of sharks.
Lady, whenever you are tired of your spot in the hot sun, whenever you are ready for the refreshing ocean to ease the pain of your sunburn that you inevitably have from sitting in that spot by the Sea for years, you are going to go running into that ocean. It's going to be a glorious sight. By this, I mean you are going to take a big risk. You will dive deep and you're going to grow a fin. By this, I mean you're going to do impossible things, not hard things. Impossible things. You may even see a shark, but you will face it with all of the boldness of Esther and command it with all of the authority of Christ. By this, I mean you're going to do impossible, terrifying things with confidence. Then, we will all call you by your new name. Sirena Enla Mar. I'm quite sure God gave it to me. Translation, Mermaid in the Sea. Because once you have discovered how powerful you are in the big gorgeous sea, this will be your favorite place and you won't believe you were ever scared of it.
So as if I haven't challenged you enough, here's another one to help build the confidence that Sirena Enla Mar will need to do impossible and terrifying things. Take your own challenge that you have so carefully avoided. Sit down somewhere quiet and take a long hard look inside yourself. Do not get up until you have found three things you are proud of about your personality. If you'll listen hard enough, God himself just might tell you what he likes in you, what he placed in you.
Love,
Acacia Faye
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